v: needs prayer regarding dad's 60th b-day this sat

jacob from URL @ 12/20/2002 12:39:00 AM

boys aren't toads nor prince charmings. they are just boys. they're having a hard time competing with fairy tales princes for girls who aren't snow white, ariel, nor belle.

jacob from URL @ 12/19/2002 04:46:00 AM

re the guys who jump from girl to girl to girl:

i must say, that honestly, i have not seen this phenomenon in effect. if i had observed the same things, i would probably agree with all your conclusions.


made me think alot. and kinda questioned myself whether just simply staying
away is the right thing. sometimes i relate and empathize (hehe. a word you
don't like,i know) too much with some of the stories i hear from close
sisters who've been hurt by guys and end up crying in pain. because i too am
waiting. and i have high expectations for that guy. not necessarily perfect
in every way but at least, someone with a character that i really respect.
and when i hear some of the brothers that i do respect fall so ...
unexpectedly, it kinda disappoints me to a degree of hurting :( *sigh* BUT
not to say that i've lost ALL hope:P hehe>

i can understand that. i mean, it is a hard thing, to be told that one must respect and allow this man to lead you your entire life, especially when you've been independent, especially in this day and age, and especially if guys around you are clowning around and doing stupid things that make them lose your respect. but give them a little room to grow. it's worrisome to us, too, that there is so much responsibility on us. i mean, we have enough trouble with our own lives, spiritual AND secular, so it's quite something when there is going to be someone (who is probably more capable in many ways) look up to you for guidance.



long time ago about why you don't have a girlfriend. frankly i didn't finish
reading the entry, i think, but it made me wonder and wanted to chat with
you one day about it. man, jacob, is all this waitng really worth it? that's
a question to both of us. because i wonder that more often now... since not
having had a boyfriend only puts greater pressure on myself, the
undiscovered guy, and even my family and friends!! but for now, i've
decided to put this question on hold because it feels like an endless
pursuit... and probably a worthless one when i do find the other person.>

hahaha
maybe this is the calling in our hormones? in some internal clock of our bodies? of seeing SOME ppl around us engaged in such wonderful relationships? seeing the intimacy and the love that we miss?

i keep telling myself it's worth it. i have to cling on that. because as hard as it is, i'm willing to forego all that for when i give myself to my wife. it's my very personal gift to her. (also one of the reasons i work out, aside from helping my bball game. HAHAHAHAHAHA) i don't expect the same thing back. it's takes away the sanctity of my gift if i expect the same thing from her. it will be wonderful if she has, also, but too be frank, i've waited so long (and i've steeled myself for a much longer wait) that i don't really need a gift like this from her. so yes, i think it's good to wait.

anything significant. hahaha! sorry. next time, write me at
amykim21@yahoo.com because this is a stricly "fanmail" and junkmail box.
shhh... don't tell anyone though:P>

AHA!!! i've made amy's personal email list! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

post meant! good luck!>

as you've probably read by now, no. hahaha. that was regarding my brother proposing to his gf of seven yrs. SEVEN! jeez... it will not be that long for me....

we WILL have that chat someday...

In Him,
-jacob

jacob from URL @ 12/19/2002 04:19:00 AM

-pray: glo interview on fri

-jaeko- is djembe his? approval + PB approval
-b.choi- call, confirm

-josh- skating? retreat: ski or board?
-gene- skating?
-daniel- double check
-call paul pham - skating?

-get skii gloves at canal jeans (12)


from sarah:
isaiah 52:12
'but you will not leave in haste or go in flight; for the Lord will go before you, the God of israel will be your rear guard.'
shrub775: i just felt like God wanted you to remember that He has both gone before you into this exam and He will come behind and accomplish what He set out to do....you just need to go into it and do the best you can, knowing that He's got it all worked out.

jacob from URL @ 12/19/2002 12:49:00 AM

why do i like to sleep so much? for the hope that i will meet her there...

jacob from URL @ 12/18/2002 03:57:00 AM

i remember being drawn to people because they looked attractive. outwardly. i dont mean a guy i lusted after. i mean, sometimes, you look at people-they are simply the definition of beauty..., and this draws you to them. you want to look at him/her. (hmmm... maybe this isnt coming out the way i'd like. anyways...)

isn't it funny, that after getting to know this "beautiful" person, their personality begins to shine through. basically what i'm getting at, is that people so easily turn ugly. no, they havent changed their appearance, but slowly, i find them less and less attractive because of how ugly their personality makes them. i dont know if something's wrong with my eyes, but they honestly LOOK uglier. their outward appearance molds to what is inside.

i've never been able to separate the two. some people can say - he/she is not good-looking, but has a great personality. somehow, i cant really see it like that.

you meet someone. he/she doesnt really catch your eye. pretty "normal". but you get to know them better. he/she becomes so incredibly beautiful, you can't get enough. you just want to be around that person, and when you look at them, you don't see a "normal" person, but the most attractive person you've ever known...

jacob from URL @ 12/17/2002 06:26:00 PM

weirdness:on dating after becoming friends: a change of mind

after seeing bv/gk, dl/jb, i changed my mind.

jacob from URL @ 12/17/2002 02:21:00 PM

knocking and coming into chuck's room, where chuck and bj are watching a sex scene from vanilla sky, with very very guilty faces, as if they had been caught.
pointing to the tv screen: "it's vanilla sky!" chuck shouted, in defense to the unasked question. HAHAHAHAHA


tripping on a ny sidewalk while checking out a girl... good going, trooper...

jacob from URL @ 12/17/2002 05:22:00 AM

well, then. i guess your fans will have to wait patiently, until you post, or email, sporadically or no. beggars can't demand anything of their empress.

ferocious and mean? kinda like stitch? (how adorable was he, anyway?! SUCH a pleasant surprise. very undisney-like) i think you ARE cute.

i'm working out like a madman so that ferocious mean girls might think that i am buff, too, like your friend. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

have a great wk!!

In Him,
-jacob

jacob from URL @ 12/16/2002 06:14:00 PM

treasures in heaven

bazooka joe bubble gum. in elementary school, went to the liquor store next to church to buy gum, and ate one strip of gum at a time, saved the rest in my desk.

similar to how we are living our lives here on earth, hoarding something that is temporary.

jacob from URL @ 12/16/2002 03:53:00 AM

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