ESPN.com - NBA - Jordan as short-term Laker? MJ says '100 percent no': "'I can pretty much do everything except explode. My leg is weak at some spots,' Bryant said"

jacob from URL @ 10/08/2003 05:55:00 PM

It's Time Bryant Puts His Needs First: "'When I'm out there playing basketball it's not me going out there and playing or me controlling it, it's about me maximizing the blessing that God has given me. It's not about the money, it's not about the fame and all that other stuff. It's about going out there and doing what I do best and having a good time doing it. To be honest with you, I'd much rather play basketball and not be famous. I'd much rather do something else that I love doing, getting paid well to do it and being able to be married to my wife and raise our children without anybody bothering us when we go out in public or everybody scrutinizing every little detail, everybody making up rumors about our lives. I'd take that better than this, any day of the week.'"

jacob from URL @ 10/08/2003 01:00:00 PM

It's Time Bryant Puts His Needs First: "'Going through something like this humbles you, and you understand that your ultimate purpose here is to do God's work,' Bryant said. "

jacob from URL @ 10/08/2003 12:59:00 PM

we are like the bright green little turtles you see in chinatown: overcrowded, running into each other no matter which way you turn.

jacob from URL @ 10/08/2003 02:56:00 AM

being misunderstood/misinterpreted-

when people see something about me, or what i've done, and immediately draw conclusions about me. i've become pigeonholed into categories of holy-schmoly, flirt, and scandalous recently (less of the former, and more of the latter, in recent times). i just want to tell those people who have participated, (screw YOU!) YOU DON'T KNOW ME. (pardon my language, those who have had nothing to do with this, and are wondering why jacob is flipping out)

you know what part drives me nuts? if one person were to come up to my face and accuse me, that would be ok. because i'd ask for a point by point detailed report of evidence. i think i am objective and real enough that i would be able to deny or admit to wrongdoings honestly.

but there is no defense against rumors or a general (false) reputation. it's like flinging punches into the wind. it just pisses you off more.

but you know what really makes me want to run, gather full speed and slam my head into a brick wall? ....

when things are actually true. my ears burn, i can hear my heart thump, and i have to make my hands be still. but i don't do anything. because i have absolutely NO defense, and can only listen. any defense in such a case is the spouting of foolishness.

heap coals on my head; i deserve it.

jacob from URL @ 10/08/2003 02:49:00 AM

talk with bry, mp. i am ashamed. i deserve such a talk. and the irony: not so long ago, i mentally condemned those such as myself.

gotta be strong.

i'm falling apart, losing all my ideals and foundations that i've built. so easily.

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john irving:
ayn rand writes of romantic ideals, of man as he SHOULD be. steinbeck writes of the heart of man, of man as he MAY be. john irving writes of the comedy/embarrassment/mediocrity of man. man as he so often turns out to be.

jacob from URL @ 10/07/2003 11:58:00 PM

ESPN.com - NBA - Jackson says Kobe's not at full strength to play: "'My escape is faith,' Bryant said. 'Sometimes it doesn't seem like there's a light at the end of the tunnel. You pray, you have faith. The next thing you know, the light is brighter than ever.'"

jacob from URL @ 10/07/2003 01:47:00 AM

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